muddy shoes

a shower of hopes..

happy new year!!!
happy 2004!!
its a new year! a new beginning!!
i sincerely hope everything will be fine and happy and everything!! tho tears cant be avoided..i really hope it'll be decreased significantly...and especially in march!!
so hmmz.. this new beginning is showering me hopes..so i'm sitting down here..hoping even harder for my hopes to come trueee!!

happy 2004 friends!!!
may this year be a prosperous and happening and happy and fulfilling and hopeful year!!!!
happy new year!! welcome this year with smiles!! cos everything will be better!!!!!
lalalalalalaaaa!~*

so school starts tomorrow..
i dread it totally...
actually i think if i were to be in a better school..maybe everything will be different..and i'll feel better?but what's done is already done..so too bad peiyun..just go there and enjoy yrself okay!!so i'll march into that school and be funny and act normal!!

hahaha!!

hmmmz..
after all tt..i still dread school as much..this darn holiday is so short..i'm seriousoly not prepared!!excuse me manz!!how to adapt!!i dont want to wake up early!!and i want to sleep late and play my game!!now i cant play anymore!!i'm sure my father is gonna be funny and lock up the com again!!i just know him..
so wad?!?!i'm suppose to go to school already?isnt tt fast?it's too fast!!i dont want to goooo!! can i be a kid and sit on the floor and kick everything away and thrwo tantrums?i know i cant.. but i want to..i cant..i'm gonna be j1..not p1.. so how?i cant act like a p1!! so how?? some suggestions?!?1?i dont want!! save me somebody!! maybe i'll find a wand and zap myself away?!?!?! arghhh!!!^^^

ok..i'll stop my nonsense..and watch my tv..and be happy for the next few hours..
aniwae..it'll just be a day or orientation..and i'll just sit on the floor and try to be funny with myself.. oh shit..i cant sit unproperly anymore!!shit!! argh!!the change of environment!!i wan to sit like anyhow..and get scolded from limmie!!arghhh!! nvmm!!!

i'm peiyun..so i can do it!!!

i can!!i will!!!

muahahahahah!!